Today marks 11 months since first baby was born. In one month, I will celebrate his birthday. There will be tears, because I ache to hold him in my arms, but I will also celebrate. He was such a special person. My life will never be the same.
I think, like many mothers who have lost babies, I fear that the world will forget my little boy. Yet I think that maybe you do remember, even apart from my reminding you on this blog. It’s so hard to know how to show someone that you remember. I know. So I want to tell you how to enter into the Valley in a very small way for me, as the anniversary of Sam’s passing and his birthday are coming. If he had lived, I would have sent out invitations for his first birthday party. But that was not the unique plan for his life, and he is not here with me today. I still think he is worth celebrating though! So I ask you to help me celebrate my sweet boy in this way.
Would you write his name?
Sam has a name gallery in his About page. Many other mothers who walk this journey of grief with me have written his name and taken pictures for me. Would you do that too, between now and February 18? Write his name in pencil on a piece of notebook paper. Spell out his name with fridge magnets. Write his name with rocks or modeling clay or with an etch-a-sketch. Take a picture of his name on a street sign or in sidewalk chalk on the driveway. When you do that, and I see the picture you email me, I will hear, “I remember him too,” and that will be so good for my heart.